Images: Ahmed Fayed
So my thigh journey continued. I lost a lot of weight and started looking skeletal, minus the thighs. They still thundered on, no matter how ridiculously small I turned myself into.
So I started option number 3 – 50s A line skirts and maxi skirts. I figured as long as no one can see my gross thighs, who can prove they are as bad as they are in my mirror? It’s like if you partied with the Kardashians, and didn’t snap a selfie with them – did it really happen?
Of course, sticking with option number 3 was starting to get hard in summer months and it made me feel extremely self-conscious. Any brand that approached me to model or blog for them would get radio silence from me as I was petrified they’d ask me to wear something above the knee. I still remembered the chills I’d get at the thought of that.
This all of course started at a single comment that perhaps I shouldn’t wear that skirt and that “if I worked harder on my legs, one day I could allow myself to try a mini skirt”. Don’t get me wrong – this comment is all I still hear in my head as I look at the images above. All I can see are thunder thighs and how my legs are awful compared to someone else’s. Anyone else’s, for that matter.
We all see our selves in different ways. Had I not mentioned what’s going on in my head, I doubt anyone would notice my legs or even think to comment on them.
So what has pushed me over the edge and drove me to face my fear of going for such a scandalously thigh revealing look? Being annoyed at myself that I had become a victim of a comment, of someone’s view, of someone’s dislike of my body part for 27 years. It had to end one day, right?
Wrong. A step like this is winning the battle – but the war still rages on. I’ve learned to be better to myself and distance myself from constant self criticism. Waking up everyday and feeling nothing but fixated on how disappointed I feel about my appearance is not a good way to start a morning. So this is what I started doing to boost my self esteem:
- I stopped buying clothes that are too big for me. They made me feel smaller. Do I need to feel smaller? Nope. I need to feel comfortable. If not that, then just fabulous.
- I stopped being fixated on my thunder thighs. This was really hard. But the second I let them be, I started feeling free. I suddenly remembered why I loved fashion and outfit creation.
- I switched my mindset. So what that someone doesn’t like something in me? Do I have to follow suit and dislike myself? Of course not. Plus, I am surrounded by people who have zero problems with my legs. Or any other body part.
- I faced my fear. Although I still have to climb Mount Kilimanjaro to be where I want to be in terms of feeling self-conscious, it was a step in the right direction. A few more mini skirts or daisy dukes – and perhaps I will get there.
- I focused on happiness. Spending time with my boyfriend, friends and eating carbs made me happy. So I did just that, and I still do.
A massive shoutout to Abbott & Mosley. This brand brought that luxury feel to relatively affordable watches. Marble faces, beautiful leather straps and rose gold dials all made this particular watch true Instagram candy, not to mention lust-worthy accessories.
While I have your attention, a wink to Madam Rage, who sent me this dress. It inspired me to stand up and face my fears and self-consciousness. If that’s not a good dress, I don’t know what is.
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That coat looks so cosy!
Candice | Beauty Candy Loves
Fabulous dress, and rich hued coat . Love the OTK boots, they look great on you! I am glad you are not torturing yourself over one perceived flaw, what I see is an exquisite woman who is smart and stylish .
Thanks for sharing this. Love the watch too!
xx, Elle
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You are the best, thank you, Elle 🙂
Love reading this.
Alice Cerea
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I agree, when a dress can do that for you, it’s definitely a winner! You look lovely and those boots are gorgeous too. xx/Madison
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Świetne są te buty! Ja nie mam niestety nóg idealnych, choć ciągle nad nimi pracuje i uwielbiam wszelkiego rodzaju kozaki, które świetnie ukrywają to, czego nie chcę pokazać.
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I think you look gorgeous in those boots! I guess we all want what we can’t have. I have more of a boyish figure but it seems no matter how many butt exercises I do I have a curve limit. But you’re right – it’s more important to feel comfortable and happy in your own skin.
Love this look!
And those boots are just – uhhh!!!
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This is a really lovely outfit! 🙂 xx
The boots are great but my favourite item is the coat!
ANOUK
I think you are a wonderful blogger, and these boots look so lovely on you. If your inner wish is to loose weight and have thinner legs, running could be a great help. It was for me.
xoxo
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I saw this look on Instagram and I must add I absolutely love this warm tones on you <3
Love,
Nilu Yuleena Thapa
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I love your clean cut style. You look beautiful!
Your thighs are lovely just the way they are 🙂
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You look real classy with this trench coat, dear! xoxo
I am so glad you chose to shows us these lovely shots, dear. I have always enjoyed those gorgeous thighs of yours so much, they often bring me such excitement! Here I just kept wishing for one shot without the boots. Even though they are cool, I was dying to see (and dreaming about) what the view was without them. Proved very enjoyable 😉 So gorgeous!!! Kisses
All Things Bright and Lovely
Hands down to your for facing your fears! I think you look gorgeous as usual and the boots are so chic with the rest of the outfit. I have no idea what that comment came from and I have no idea how you can hear it as you look at the photos. But the sad truth is often though that there is a minority that is stupid enough to point out things they don’t like about others that only underlines the insecurities one already has. And it ends up being only you that can see/hear the things you’re uncomfortable with. Whilst the majority has no idea what is going on! You look so good and even after you’ve “pointed out” what you don’t like, I have no idea what you’re talking about.
Off to something else, hello eyebrows on fleek! Xx
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Love your outfit!! You look so pretty!! <3
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nice coat!
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wow, you look amazing, i love it
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These thigh highs look fabulous on you! The coat is so gorgeous as well x
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You look so amazing! Love the outfit!
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I would like to join the people who have zero problems with your legs. Seriously, they are gorgeous and I can’t believe someone said something so mean to you… This just proves how awful people can be to each other. Everything about you looks fabulous, especially your thighs!!
Bella Pummarola
Great post,photos are amaizing! 🙂
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Very chic. I really love your coat and your boots are perfect. Kisses 🙂
Very chic. I really love your coat and your boots are perfect. Kisses